Britney Spears has opened up about her 13-year conservatorship, describing how her father 'managed her body and her money' and 'damaged' her with 'fat' jokes.
In her incendiary new memoir, The Woman In Me, due out later this month, the singer, 41, has taken aim at her 71-year-old father Jamie.
The celebrity spoke candidly about her family's relentless control over her in extracts acquired by People, saying that it makes her "feel sick" to think about it now.
'Feeling like you're never good enough is a soul-crushing condition of being for a youngster,' Britney heartbreakingly admitted.
I'd been eyeballed so much growing up,' Britney writes on the new album. Since she was a teenager, she had been scrutinized from all angles and had people tell what they thought of her body.
She added that she used acting out and shaving her head as tactics to protest.
But she was made to understand by the conservatorship that those times were now past. She had to re-gain her fitness and let her hair grow out. She was required to take the prescribed medication and get to bed early.
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If being ridiculed about my body in the media was horrible, hearing it from my own father stung even more. He kept telling me that I appeared overweight and that I needed to take action.
A child's soul is crushed when they believe they are never good enough, the singer turned writer wrote. He had drilled that message into her when she was a young girl, and he was still doing it to her now that she had achieved so much.
I turned into a robot. Not just any robot, though; more of a child-robot. I was losing aspects of who I was because I had been so infantilized."
Thirteen years went by with me feeling like a shadow of myself," the performer concluded. "I feel terrible when I recall how long my father and his friends were in charge of both my physical well-being and my financial resources," she also wrote.
After some well publicized mental health difficulties, Jamie assumed control of his oldest daughter's life and assets in 2008.
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