Billie Eilish is keeping it real when it comes to her sexuality.
The Grammy-winner is opening up about coming to terms with her sexuality while writing her new album, Hit Me Hard and Soft. The album, set for release on May 17, is her most personal yet.
The "Bad Guy" singer recently debuted a snippet of "Lunch," an anticipated track from the new record. She describes that writing the song "was actually part of what helped me become who I am, to be real," as it assisted her in coming to terms with her sexuality. It was partially written when she had her first sexual experience with a girl.
"I wrote some of it before even doing anything with a girl, and then wrote the rest after. I've been in love with girls for my whole life, but I just didn't understand - until, last year, I realized I wanted my face in a vagina," Eilish says to Rolling Stone.
The candid response displays growth for Eilish, who slammed Variety last year for "outing" her. After she stated that she liked girls in a cover story with the publication, the "Happier Than Ever" singer was then asked about her sexuality on a red carpet, which she later said was exploiting her sexuality.
"I was never planning on talking about my sexuality ever, in a million years. It's really frustrating to me that it came up," she continues to say to Rolling Stone. She now seems to feel more comfortable discussing the subject, as "Lunch" is an explicit re-telling of her experiences.
"I basically talk about sex any time I possibly can. That's literally my favorite topic. My experience as a woman has been that it's seen in such a weird way. People are so uncomfortable talking about it, and weirded out when women are very comfortable in their sexuality and communicative in it. I think it's such a frowned-upon thing to talk about, and I think that should change. You asked me what I do to decompress? That sh-- can really, really save you sometimes, just saying. Can't recommend it more, to be real."
Eilish played a snippet of the song for Apple Music, debuting the lyrics "I could eat that girl for lunch / And she dances on my tongue / Tastes like she might be the one / And I can never get enough / I could buy her so much stuff / It's a craving, not a crush." She teases that the single will come with a music video. Its sound has been described as a startling reset from what audiences recently heard from her Barbie song.
"What's funny about starting the album with [the opener] is that it is a total false promise," her brother and songwriting partner Finneas says. "If you're remembering 'What Was I Made For?' and then you hear [it], you go, 'Oh, OK. I understand this world.' Then the drums come in [on "Lunch"], and it really is the kill-the-main-character-type beat. It's like Drew Barrymore being in the first five minutes of Scream and then they kill her. You're like, 'They can't kill Drew. Oh, my God, they killed Drew!'"
As the 22-year-old continues to share more about her life, she claims that she has no interest in being a "role model" for others, instead stating that the album is a "restart" in terms of what she shares with the world.
